Life Sucks!!!!!

Life sucks @ss lately......started last Saturday....woke up at 8:am-ish to a call telling us Tina's mom was being rushed to the hospital......was pretty scary, we almost lost her....Tina kept falling apart.....this was followed by 4 days in ICU and finally she got to go home......Tina slept at the hospital all week to be with her....I worked and went home to about 30 minutes with my wife, and sleeping alone.....not that I slept much at all.

Meanwhile, I just started my new job and am told I will be doing the billing, with zero training on this paperless system....sink or swim, not too much pressure!

Then Wednesday night I became deathly ill.....stayed home Thursday in bed the whole time.....finally felt better late that night.....hated calling in sick so soon into a new job.....thank god, I have today, Friday, OFF.

My life has been stress and worried sick about both Tina and her mom all week, zero sleep from it all.......coupled with stress at work being made responsible for the most important aspect of a new buisness, BILLING (which by the way was being done wrong for the last 3 months).......again with zero training....add to that being sick as a dog for two days.......worried about and without my wife, and there you have it......my life.....SUCKS!!!

...oh and did I forgert to mention my brother who hasn't talked to me in over 10 years has started IMing me......wants to keep it a secret though.....and may or may not SOMEDAY let me know my neices and nephew.....happy/frustrating/stressfull/hopeful and a thousand other emotions at once.....

I WORK ALL WEEK, I HAVE PRECIOUS LITTLE DOWN/FUN TIME (friday night, saturday, and sunday....that's it!!!) SO I HAVE TO SPREAD IT AROUND (or have no life/sanity)......THE RATIO IS 90% ME AND TINA, 5% ME, TINA AND FRIENDS TOGETHER TIME, AND 5% (IF THAT) ME TIME WITH MY FRIENDS!

These days haven't exactly been super happy fun time....i swear to god, i'm loosing my shit.

I have my priorities straight as far as my personal life is concerned. Family 1st, friends 2nd, and me (YES ME) 3rd. If both my friends and family really love me, they will encourage me to take some time for me, BECAUSE they love me.

Friend of mine and her daughter MIGHT want to meet up at a bar for a drink later.....I hope they still want to go tonight, 'cause i need a f#cking break from everything....and a good stiff drink and listening to someone else's problems for awhile sounds great right about now.....although the way my stomach has been, it will be a good stiff ginger ale....LOL

I don't know if I want to scream, cry, or just lay down and die, but i know i've had enough stress lately to last me a lifetime.....and the above isn't the half of it.